Mother of two. Artist. Plant enthusist. Gamer. lover of sunshine.
In a relationship.
This is my page and sometimes it's going to be really personal, at the moment I’m in recovery. Trying to get back my health and work out why I am so tired all the time. - “in testing mode!”
So don’t expect much. I’m not working at my optimum but I’d love to get back to being my normal self again.
May comic! Happy mental health awareness month. 🐝 Comic brought to you by my constant worry that I don’t exist if I have nothing to show for myself.
Advice to my past self: Read about burnout. Stretch. Stand up. Get lunch. Ask for extensions. Get help. Sleep. Take time off if you need to, don’t ask. Take care of yourself.
Spotted that my chilly plant had decided to grow some chillis this year, I planted it from seed last year and it just didn’t do anything. Except flower repeatedly. I’m also growing some lettuce this year, a tomato plant and some potatoes. I might grab some strawberries at some point too, because we love strawberries and eat through them so quickly. 😂
Bearded dragon is huge now, we made his enclosure a bio-tank set up, he’s so much more active now compared to before and loves to hunt the bugs that we place in his tank.
Taking advantage of my fatigue being less to do a walking workout. It’s not crazy hard and there’s no weights , but it’s enough that I can feel it.
I don’t want to push myself into a flare again.
This is the one I used. Definitely works up a sweat, and I modified the more high impact moves to be slower and more gentle.
But I guess I’ve got to start somewhere, even if building up is slow. I’m also listening to a lecture as I workout, because I have my first exam on Friday, and I need to revise but wanted to get my body moving today.
My fatigue isn’t too bad at the moment, it’s still there but it’s very low levels, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve actually been able to get up in the morning without falling asleep again or dragging myself up. But that means I’ve actually had the energy and motivation to do a bunch of house projects that I’ve been putting off, I’m really proud of them. They look so nice.
We’ve also just had a really busy weekend. It was my sisters 30th, and my nephews 1st birthday. So I actually got dressed up and traveled down to see her Saturday she wanted to go out for a meal. Which of course I’m going to do because it’s only once in her life that she turns 30, but I haven’t been on a train since 2015. Which is wild, and it gave me a load of anxiety so I felt stressed all day until I left, it wasn’t that bad in the end, the train was full of drunk people on the way home but, It was nice to see how much Exeter has changed since I last went there.
Then on Sunday we celebrated my nephews 1st birthday, at her in-laws house. The kids loved it, because they had a huge bouncy castle and It was a beautiful place right out in the middle of Dartmoor. We had so much amazing food, I ate so much fruit 😂 but it was just piled high and it was so hot that day.
I’m still finishing up university, I have two exams on the 26th and 30th, then that is the first year completely over and done with. It’s been a tough year, not going to lie.
I went in feeling like it was going to be easy, and it has not been at all. I don’t know why I thought that 😂 it’s a Masters degree. But I’m passing and that’s the main thing and I’m aiming to get a 2:1 overall.
Lets start to normalize going slow. Slow, steady, consistent.
Take time to develop habits. A little step at a time, day over day, month over month, year over year. Take little steps. Gain momentum. The momentum will carry you though and keep you on track. Don’t expect to see changes in a week. Start looking after a month, two months, six months, two years. Find a journey that brings you joy.
maybe the purpose of life is to fill it with as many positive things as you can. regardless of how bad life gets, don’t let it steal your personality, your hobbies, your style. after coming home from a bad day at work maybe you need to sit down and read a nice book. after studying non-stop for so long, maybe you should finish that crochet project you’ve been putting off because you’re so busy. maybe we should prioritize the things we love, the things that make us happy, and not just the things we’re forced to do to survive. in this society, a little peace from the outside world is important. don’t give up on the things that make you happy. don’t forget about yourself.
“Thin brows are back in” “skinny jeans are back” “wolfcuts are out” “this style of eyeshadow is soo trendy right now” “big asses are out, slim figures are in”
Hey do you guys ever make your own decisions or form your own ideas on how you would personally like to look that’s not based around what’s currently being sold to you. Is that not possible
“Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months”
There are hundreds of life long conditions and diseases out there that are typically diagnosed between 12 and 30.
There is a vast difference between being tired and having chronic fatigue.
Just because you can’t tell that someone is unwell from looking at them, doesn’t mean that you should assume that they are ok.
Many chronic illnesses are life long, and incurable. Many of them are potentially fatal.
If you have a disease like Lupus, on good days you still feel like you have a bad flu, 24/7.
Many of the medications used to treat chronic conditions have side effects that can really affect someone’s self esteem - like extreme weight gain, skin changes and hair loss.
Most chronic illnesses have very little awareness - its unlikely that you’ve heard of Sjogren’s Syndrome, Scleroderma, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome or Fibromyalgia.
However these diseases can cause symptoms as varied as joint pain, fatigue, constant nausea, kidney failure, pneumonia, photo sensitivity, full body rashes, paralysis, strokes etc.
So please remember that invisible illnesses exist too :)
Do not mistake composure for ease.
No one should need to have - or be on the verge of - a breakdown for you to take them and their needs seriously.
my osteoarthritis started showing symptoms when i was fourteen years old. i had to quit the soccer team because i grew bone spurs on the inside of my kneecaps. so that was fun! you’re not “too young to be sick,” that’s just-world-fallacy bullshit.
related: don’t assume someone who uses a wheelchair is ‘faking’ if you see them stand or walk. most wheelchair users aren’t paralyzed. most likely they can stand, walk, even run in an emergency, but it hurts like a bastard and can lay them out for days afterwards.
nobody owes you a performance of a stereotyped disability token. if you are abled, it is on you to accomodate us, not the other way around.
thank you for reading, and for taking a moment to absorb the information. <3
And, no, I absolutely do not mean productivity. I do not mean pushing yourself. At least not entirely.
I do mean that ‘making the most’ will look different every day.
Some days it will be getting shit done, chasing your dreams and your goals. Others it will be self-improvement on a more inner level. Others it will be spending time with people who matter and fulfill you. Others just enjoyment of this crazy little thing called life without any goals other than enjoyment itself. Still others ‘making the most’ will actually be doing nothing at all because we all need that time to rest and recharge.
So, make this most of each day friends, in all of the wonderful, different ways there are to do so.
I mean, yeah, valid! but but but I also want to add on the fact that lotr AGGRESSIVELY rejects the “grimdark” and “gritty” settings that is so prevalent in fantasy (and also in general) right now, because I physically can not shut up about it
It is hope and love and compassion that saves each character individually, and because of that, the world. Frodo fails in the end, but his acts of compassion from earlier in the story save the day. And even as the world is saved, it is acknowledged that Frodo failed—without judgement, without blame. He fails, and he is still loved.
And like what can happen in the real world, he is still irrevocably changed by his trauma. But there is still hope—he has to leave, but he leaves with the promise of healing, and the promise that his ever-faithful Sam will follow.
Aragorn, Boromir, Frodo, Sam; each and every one of the characters are driven by their love of the people around them and their hope for the future. They cling to that love and hope throughout their trials, and that bears them through.
Of course people are watching it for comfort!!!! Lotr is eternally consistent in its promise, which Sam articulates so clearly in The Two Towers: “Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines, it’ll shine out the clearer.”
Things are dark and awful and terrible, but it will not be that way forever. That is the promise of LOTR. A promise of hope, and the reminder that it is love and compassion—for our friends, for our families, for the strangers we’ve never even met—that will save us in the end.
Lotr respects its audience rather than seeing it as an enemy to be tricked into forking over time and attention.
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Follow their official social media on all platforms and only trust statements from the union itself, and articles they promote (be wary of other articles).
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